The Dying Trade

life is so, so, so drab. It used to be something I looked forward to, something I was excited about- but now I'm am marking the start of my life really really soon. Everything else seems so trivial and tiring, and pointless, now.Over the past 11 months, I have lost all the energy, exuberance and spirit I used to have- and more. I have descended to being uncomfortable and awkwardly self-absorbed when I'm around others.I need to get back in touch with civilisation. . Friends. Lectures. Lecturers. People; Many people, rather than just any Single One.On to something new- what's been going on in my life? Well... does it seem like I have much to talk about.Am afraid not.

Sigh! Guess its all about trust and faith in this upcoming lesson to be.

So much of worries to think about........

As of my previous past entries, 3rd parties / flings are bound to die one fine day. grrr.......

Keeping myself really busy as i'm stuck in the moment and i cant help it all.

don't say that later will be better as i'm stuck in a moment and i cant help it all.

Let's all just face it, nobody gives as much heck about Blogs now as they used to.Nowadays, people would rather spend endless hours in front of dumb Facebooks, writing on each other's cyber-'walls' (I am suddenly reminded of Mending Wall) , pinching/poking/prodding one another. That comes across as, not that I mean to sound supercilious, exasperatingly banal.These 'channels of communication' are just crashing down on us in relentless waves: MSN, ICQ, IRC, Friendster, Facebook, WAYN... god knows how many other such things I have rejected, and how many more will join the surge in the future.Having to sign up for these things isn't just irritating to an imbecile proportion; we get so caught up with flaunting the number of friends we have (adding anyone who passes remotely for a semblance of an acquaintance) that we forget the more important process of keeping in touch with those people who DO matter.We let friendship just sort of... slip us by. Before we know it, the gal/guy we were so happily chatting away with a few years back now stands as just a vaguely familiar face which we struggle to put a name to..Trying very hard to be optimistic, Karen votes for the former reason. :)Blame myself, really. Getting all caught up with my personal life, conveniently ignoring that other human beings coexist with me, and taking for granted all that I've had in the past.Even my dearest ex-classmates of A01e...Count myself extremely lucky that I have Xin & Lyd around- they are probably one of the few greatest blessings I've had in my life.I have digressed rather unforgivably. I was meaning to comment on how I can now have a freer reign to speak my mind, given that people supposedly don't read others' blogs that much anymore. Supposedly lah, ya?Hey, that must have been my first Singlish in quite a while. It actually felt quite good saying it.:)